I was a threat to the pecking order, to their consciousness or unconsciousness...I fought back quietly and continually. felt and was told i must work hard to prove my worth and to stay on the plantation. I did prove worth and gain respect. The God of my understanding kept me alive, although the stress or the constant fear of a tough lashing form my overseers that would report directly to the owner of the plantation...having endured being one of the most capable enslaved afrikan and the most underpaid is worthy of a book. No one could out work me, out think me in areas of creativity and no one had the universal respect and contacts in the community.
Overcoming the debt and creating a few more inches of breathing room i could now exercise my expertise to assist the folks that i was hired to assist. Most were lost and turned out as I was from time to time..many times because of my own will and the counter pressure of the forces working to control me and or kill me.
Well as in the movie "GONE with the Wind", over time i was alive and had created access and freedom to work as i pleased and roam as needed to be both effective at work and less stressful at play.
To watch the overseers of color get exposed for their weaknesses and insecurities. To watch the non people of color rape the plantation and move on, and now to experience the plantation crumble before my eyes and the plantation master drift into darkness, powerless and penniless. His generals and captains and sergeants all deserted him, and one of the only people concerned to assist on my own free will is the old whipping boy, he had come to rely on as I became the rock in which the work of the plantation and its mission had began to live our its calling (or attempted to ).
I must admit getting a close eye view is so revealing as the 21st century civil war is as bloody as the 19th century ever was...stay tuned as i plan to travel to the low country of south carolina and the homeland of africa. One goal is to recharge and establish a import / export information and education for my families next generation..The struggle continues